今天是我的农历生日
在最后的2005
今天终于联系上你
在最后的2005
今天重读走过的心情
在最后的2005
今天多了些兴奋、少了些忧郁
在最后的2005
我的笑容是夏天的
我的温柔是热情的
我的快乐是阳光的
2005年12月31日星期六
2005年12月30日星期五
2005年12月28日星期三
2005年12月27日星期二
喜欢自己
迎着飘雨站在二十七米高的吊桥
往下看，
我的心跳加速了几秒
在应该陌生的车上，在两小时的徒步中，从艳阳到大雨
我依然怡然自得
赞美的话，
在短短的两小时内听了两次
漂亮和坚强
这矛盾的组合
可是别人眼中不同层面的自己？
雨刷来不及刷清的视线
我却捕捉了路灯照射的难得雨景
想嘱你路上小心
这样的叮咛可以让你知道吗？
2005年12月25日星期日
圣诞
平安夜至圣诞节
我约会了周公
在错过近乎的十则祝福中
你的名字重复了两次
是转发的
还是由衷的
我无法说清
却欣然接受
因为我看到了
你的记得
我其实很乖的
说了却惹来非议
疯狂的圣诞已离我远去
沉淀和回忆成了座上客
友人说我少了自信
我想说的是
我依然故我
而在这心情日记里
我捕捉的是最细腻的情感
我约会了周公
在错过近乎的十则祝福中
你的名字重复了两次
是转发的
还是由衷的
我无法说清
却欣然接受
因为我看到了
你的记得
我其实很乖的
说了却惹来非议
疯狂的圣诞已离我远去
沉淀和回忆成了座上客
友人说我少了自信
我想说的是
我依然故我
而在这心情日记里
我捕捉的是最细腻的情感
2005年12月22日星期四
2005年12月21日星期三
2005年12月19日星期一
2005年12月18日星期日
2005年12月17日星期六
《如果 爱〉--张学友
每个人都想明白
谁是自己生命不该错过的真爱
特别在午夜醒来更是会感慨
心动埋怨还有不能释怀
都是因为你触碰了爱
如果这就是爱
再转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉
哦爱在回忆里总是那麽明白
困惑的心流过的泪
还有数不清黑夜等待
如果这就是爱
如果你当时明白
後来的生命里是快乐还是悲哀
特别在夜深人静时想起未来
是否能平静不会想现在
只是因为你拥有了爱
如果这就是爱
再转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤
就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉
哦爱在回忆里总是那麽明白
困惑的心
流过的泪
还有数不清黑夜等待
如果这就是爱
如果这就是爱
谁是自己生命不该错过的真爱
特别在午夜醒来更是会感慨
心动埋怨还有不能释怀
都是因为你触碰了爱
如果这就是爱
再转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉
哦爱在回忆里总是那麽明白
困惑的心流过的泪
还有数不清黑夜等待
如果这就是爱
如果你当时明白
後来的生命里是快乐还是悲哀
特别在夜深人静时想起未来
是否能平静不会想现在
只是因为你拥有了爱
如果这就是爱
再转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤
就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉
哦爱在回忆里总是那麽明白
困惑的心
流过的泪
还有数不清黑夜等待
如果这就是爱
如果这就是爱
2005年12月11日星期日
西向的心情
开往西向的路上
呼吸你这里的空气
收音机播放的一首首脍炙人口的歌
开始了一天的美好
远方是八年前摔断脚踝的溜冰场
关于西向仅是所有的不圆满
草丛蛤蟆此起彼伏的叫声
提醒我大自然存在的可爱
我默默祈祷好运降临
岂料在迎接夕阳的余晖当儿
松懈的心情因手机掉出手心而纠结
也许命运注定
在你的天空
我该祈求更多上帝的帮助
呼吸你这里的空气
收音机播放的一首首脍炙人口的歌
开始了一天的美好
远方是八年前摔断脚踝的溜冰场
关于西向仅是所有的不圆满
草丛蛤蟆此起彼伏的叫声
提醒我大自然存在的可爱
我默默祈祷好运降临
岂料在迎接夕阳的余晖当儿
松懈的心情因手机掉出手心而纠结
也许命运注定
在你的天空
我该祈求更多上帝的帮助
2005年12月10日星期六
周岁诞辰
你呱呱坠地的时候
我正前往九寨沟的途中
第一次的见面
是十天以后
从你瘦小的身上
找不到之间相似的地方
当时我以为
我的心会偏向哥哥那一边
后来才发现
原来我们都一样
处事小心翼翼、三思而后行
你不知道的是
你的逐渐成长
是我倒数一个承诺的实现
终于你周岁了
亲爱的程，生日快乐！
我正前往九寨沟的途中
第一次的见面
是十天以后
从你瘦小的身上
找不到之间相似的地方
当时我以为
我的心会偏向哥哥那一边
后来才发现
原来我们都一样
处事小心翼翼、三思而后行
你不知道的是
你的逐渐成长
是我倒数一个承诺的实现
终于你周岁了
亲爱的程，生日快乐！
2005年12月9日星期五
2005年12月7日星期三
2005年12月5日星期一
2005年12月3日星期六
2005年11月30日星期三
2005年11月28日星期一
2005年11月27日星期日
Meaningful
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance
to LOVE to WORK to PLAY and to look up at the stars.--Hendry Van Dyke
The world is a book, and those who DO NOT travel read only a page.--St Augustine
A happy family is but an earlier HEAVEN--George Bernard Thaw
REST is the secret of all beauty. There is no beauty that is attractive without rest.--Christian Dior
to LOVE to WORK to PLAY and to look up at the stars.--Hendry Van Dyke
The world is a book, and those who DO NOT travel read only a page.--St Augustine
A happy family is but an earlier HEAVEN--George Bernard Thaw
REST is the secret of all beauty. There is no beauty that is attractive without rest.--Christian Dior
2005年11月26日星期六
2005年11月24日星期四
Basketball and I
written in 2000 and 2001
Primary
When I was 10, one day, my Chinese teacher who also taught P.E. went round classes hunting for tall girls. "YOU, come down for basketball training" and from then on, I was introduced to basketball! Together with the rest, we were taught the fundamentals of the game. I learnt very fast and enjoyed the praises from the teacher. I could still remember the tournament we participated in. We wore sleeveless blue white collar jersys and fought with quite a number of schools. The scotching sun, the falling leaves, the gaint-sized opponents and the forever panting for breath. We were not very organised but we did our best. I thought I played the forward position then and it was very tiring. The sense of achievement emerged only when we won the second placing in 1983.The first and the only trophy for me in those primary school days. Soon I became complacent and thought that even with fewer trainings I could still cope well. At that time, Chinese Orchestra (which was my main interest then) took up much of my time. When I finally found out that I neglected it too much, I decided to heed my parents' advice to concentrate on one eca only and spend more time for the preparation of the coming PSLE.
Secondary
When I went to secondary school, I chose Chinese Orchestra as my eca without much hesitation. I still like basketball but due to parents' objection, I only joined the interclass matches. I was asked to join the school team after a two year break. I was eager and for the first time I made my own decision.My parents did object and my the other eca stressed me out a lot too. In the end, I gave up Chinese Orchestra and concentrated fully on basketball. The days then were not that smooth either. Our coach left and we were left to train alone. Our seniors did try to get their outside coach to teach, but many factors led to the failure in doing so. Though faced with so many obstacles, the team had been very close . My playing position had now changed. I took over the captainship in my last year there. It was not an easy task. We had arranged a number of friendly matches ourselves. We took them very seriously as those were rare chances. Nobody in the team would want to absent themselves and very often, almost everyone put basketball as one's priority. What we learnt was that we would not despise ourselves even though we were always left alone. Those years, we cried, we laughed, we disheartened, we pressed on. Now only the silver and bronze medals in the cupboard could bring back these memories.
JC
I thought I would not have contact with basketball anymore when I went to JC. I was asked by my teammate to appeal with her through basketball. I was not that keen but I did not reject. Soon, I joined the training there and my interest in basketball was pushed to another greater height. I played as centre for I was the one of the tallest. My coach, Mr Sim, though he could not turn up for most of the trainings, we still managed to learn much from him when we talked to him during our free time. My captains were very demanding and we were perpetually tortured by them willingly. They stretched our physical limits to the maximum that we often grumbled in front and behind them. However, deep inside, we shared one common goal, and that was to maintain the national top titles which our seniors had done for the past 12 years. We were under tremendous pressure when there was not a single combined school player in our team. We trained real hard and very very hard. We ran 3km for warm up with weights around our ankles and wrists; We dashed up and down the 4 levels high staircase . We did 500 skipping; We used medicine balls instead of bean bags for shuttle run; We challenged the steep slope outside school and We did hundreds and hundreds of shooting.We did all the impossibles just to make sure we had no regrets during competition. In the process, we came up with our own cheers and we sorted different ways to boost our morale. We clinched the national second again! Till now, I could still remember vividly the determination, perserverence and cooperation we displayed.
University
In the university days, I was devoted to the running of my department society. It was when the inter-faculty games were held that I was back to play basketball again. We came in first for two years. After winning the last medal in 1993, my role in basketball as a player came to an end.
Work
In 1995, I was given an opportunity to teach baskteball. In the initial stage, I faced problems in buidling a rapport with my players but as the time went by, things got better. The senior players were always willing to help and mutual understanding developed. Besides being a coach, I was also a mentor and friend to them. There were misundertandings and disputes but there were laughter and joy too. Since then ,training camps and chalets were held annually and it had become a informal way for reunion and gathering. Whenever I saw the older players coming back to help out,making sure the younger ones were equipped with the necessary skills, those were my moments of glory and sense of achievement. They have touched me and hope that I have touched them in one way or another too.
1995
Alice
Shuhui
Wai Kea
1996
Biying
Jean
Jennifer
Kay Lee
Mei Sim
Sze Ai
1997
Farizan
Jean
Joyce
Jun Ghee
1998
Dyana
Hayati
Ivy
Joanna
Maria
Mei Xian
Poh Gaik
Shin Chet
Suhui
Tracy
Eileen
Fiona
Huimin
Maridana
Yingying
2000
Audrey
Diana
Fardyana
Huiying
Jane
Kairu
Xingrong
Xiujuan
Xuewei
Zhilin
Zhengwei
2001
Guan yuan
Jasmine
Jieying
Qingrong
Serene
Stella
Stephanie
2002
Bhavna
Harsharan
Jialin
Lubna
Wenting
Serene
2003
Huixin
Jingyi
Meizhi
Shuling
Tengku
Wanxin
Xiuxian
Yanling
My role in basketball will change from a coach to a faciliator and a manager from the year 2001. I am looking forward to contribute to the team in a different way
I believe...do you?
I believe that one's own zodiac sign, chinese horoscope sign and blood type reveal one's personality traits.
Zodiac sign: Capricorn
-is the leader of the Earth's signs
-is one of the hardest owrking signs of the aodiac
-has intense power of self concentration, but not in an egoistical sense
-finds more confidence in what they do than in who they are
-very high achiever
-however, can become too rigid, so must bend and flex a little
-can also focus too much on achievement that they forget the little joys in life
-when finally relaxes and enjoys life, its great sense of humour emerges
Chinese horoscope sign: Pig
-has the purest heart
-walks in Love's light with innocence and faith
-is richer and twice blessed by giving of oneself freely
-its goodwill is universal and knows no bounds
Blood type: B+
-9 % of the world is B+
-rational, pragmatic, organizer, individualist, egocentric, mind over emotion
-fixes, builds, creates
-feels best when things run smoothly
-may focus on what they are doing and neglect other things
-energetic and has drive to reach goals-
-entrepreneurial but may not be flexible
-is non stereotypical and highly individualistic
-not good at following rules set, but can be devoted once interested in something
-does things at its own pace, has its own way of living
-looks for matter of fact solution than sentimental one
-may be accused of being cold and formal
-reserved in friendship
Zodiac sign: Capricorn
-is the leader of the Earth's signs
-is one of the hardest owrking signs of the aodiac
-has intense power of self concentration, but not in an egoistical sense
-finds more confidence in what they do than in who they are
-very high achiever
-however, can become too rigid, so must bend and flex a little
-can also focus too much on achievement that they forget the little joys in life
-when finally relaxes and enjoys life, its great sense of humour emerges
Chinese horoscope sign: Pig
-has the purest heart
-walks in Love's light with innocence and faith
-is richer and twice blessed by giving of oneself freely
-its goodwill is universal and knows no bounds
Blood type: B+
-9 % of the world is B+
-rational, pragmatic, organizer, individualist, egocentric, mind over emotion
-fixes, builds, creates
-feels best when things run smoothly
-may focus on what they are doing and neglect other things
-energetic and has drive to reach goals-
-entrepreneurial but may not be flexible
-is non stereotypical and highly individualistic
-not good at following rules set, but can be devoted once interested in something
-does things at its own pace, has its own way of living
-looks for matter of fact solution than sentimental one
-may be accused of being cold and formal
-reserved in friendship
2005年11月23日星期三
2005年11月21日星期一
2005年11月20日星期日
受制
超过二十首曲子
热不了座位的温度
温暖内心的仍是
卡带里清晰的回忆
改变了习惯的你
仍坚持以往的对待
我却在这星空下
闻不到你的芳香
受制的究竟是你的形骸还是灵魂？
你的忙碌和悠闲
始终与我牵不上任何关系
究竟是你甘心于受制还是无所谓？
冷战与否
结局依旧
轮流拉长思念的距离
重复节约简讯的叮嘱
已经退出你生活范围
而今挣扎你生命周边
一切依然？
你确定吗？
热不了座位的温度
温暖内心的仍是
卡带里清晰的回忆
改变了习惯的你
仍坚持以往的对待
我却在这星空下
闻不到你的芳香
受制的究竟是你的形骸还是灵魂？
你的忙碌和悠闲
始终与我牵不上任何关系
究竟是你甘心于受制还是无所谓？
冷战与否
结局依旧
轮流拉长思念的距离
重复节约简讯的叮嘱
已经退出你生活范围
而今挣扎你生命周边
一切依然？
你确定吗？
2005年11月18日星期五
2005年11月17日星期四
autumn hokkaido 北海道的秋 2005- room 911
Left my pouch in the hotel room,
it seemed that i have become forgetful
or rather travelling with family put my mind at ease
till i need not bother much.
Was a cold day and straight after breakfast
we set off for Mount Daisetsuzan （大雪山)
"The Roof of Hokkaido" (北海道之屋顶)
Took the Kurodake ropeway from Sounkyo Station
and in 7 mins time, we reached the 5th stage of Mount Kurodake.
We were unfortunate not to see snow falling
yet at the same time fortunate to see the snow capped mountains.
Went to Sake Beer factory （男山造酒资料馆）,
oe of the "compulsory" visit in any Hokkaido trip.
Two years ago, the whole place was all white and now
it was a beautiful combination of colours.
Well, hurt my right finger very badly there and i thought of the time
when i played with the snow while waiting for the rest 2 years ago.
The feeling was the same: 孤单但不寂寞。
Finally reached my long waited place Otaru （小樽）after a more than 2 hours ride.
It was only 4 and it was getting dark. Embracing the falling raindrops, we walked to the 银钟の一号馆 for a coffee/tea. This place was famous as we could bring back the cups an saucers we bought for our coffee/tea.
Learnt of this place through the movie “情书” during my university days.
Maybe that was one of the reasons why i have a special bond towards hokkaido and Otaru.
Stayed in Hilton where it was surrounded by a huge shopping arcade.
Could merely covered half of the shops there in the window shopping mode
and that already took us almost 2 hours.
it seemed that i have become forgetful
or rather travelling with family put my mind at ease
till i need not bother much.
Was a cold day and straight after breakfast
we set off for Mount Daisetsuzan （大雪山)
"The Roof of Hokkaido" (北海道之屋顶)
Took the Kurodake ropeway from Sounkyo Station
and in 7 mins time, we reached the 5th stage of Mount Kurodake.
We were unfortunate not to see snow falling
yet at the same time fortunate to see the snow capped mountains.
Went to Sake Beer factory （男山造酒资料馆）,
oe of the "compulsory" visit in any Hokkaido trip.
Two years ago, the whole place was all white and now
it was a beautiful combination of colours.
Well, hurt my right finger very badly there and i thought of the time
when i played with the snow while waiting for the rest 2 years ago.
The feeling was the same: 孤单但不寂寞。
Finally reached my long waited place Otaru （小樽）after a more than 2 hours ride.
It was only 4 and it was getting dark. Embracing the falling raindrops, we walked to the 银钟の一号馆 for a coffee/tea. This place was famous as we could bring back the cups an saucers we bought for our coffee/tea.
Learnt of this place through the movie “情书” during my university days.
Maybe that was one of the reasons why i have a special bond towards hokkaido and Otaru.
Stayed in Hilton where it was surrounded by a huge shopping arcade.
Could merely covered half of the shops there in the window shopping mode
and that already took us almost 2 hours.
2005年11月16日星期三
2005年11月15日星期二
2005年11月14日星期一
2005年11月13日星期日
2005年11月12日星期六
2005年11月10日星期四
2005年11月8日星期二
autumn hokkaido 北海道的秋 2005 - room 1422
woke up early though 7 am was the morning call.
as much as i would like to dip in the hotspring,
still gave up the chance.
for the first time, left the room key in the room,
only realising it when i reached the ground floor.
wonder how could one remember the key which was
in the slot of the small table between two beds.
it was a day of long hours travelling.
stop over at a lavender farm, though the lavender season was over,
to be able to taste the lavender flavoured ice cream was more than enough to compensate.
the familiar ginga falls 银河之瀑布 and ryusei falls 流星瀑布
brought back memories of 2003 winter when there was nothing but world of white with falling snow.
had the opportunity to climb to the top which took us almost 20 min.
everything was fine till mum felt a little uncomfortable.
the hotel was near to the one which i stayed before.
managed to get the adults to try the hotspring, the ladies were brave enough to try while only one dad out of the three families did.
we were supposed to dressed in the japanese clothes, upon seeing some didn't,
our dads immediately went to change back.
i guess what happend during the second world war would never
change the mind sets of this two old men.
as much as i would like to dip in the hotspring,
still gave up the chance.
for the first time, left the room key in the room,
only realising it when i reached the ground floor.
wonder how could one remember the key which was
in the slot of the small table between two beds.
it was a day of long hours travelling.
stop over at a lavender farm, though the lavender season was over,
to be able to taste the lavender flavoured ice cream was more than enough to compensate.
the familiar ginga falls 银河之瀑布 and ryusei falls 流星瀑布
brought back memories of 2003 winter when there was nothing but world of white with falling snow.
had the opportunity to climb to the top which took us almost 20 min.
everything was fine till mum felt a little uncomfortable.
the hotel was near to the one which i stayed before.
managed to get the adults to try the hotspring, the ladies were brave enough to try while only one dad out of the three families did.
we were supposed to dressed in the japanese clothes, upon seeing some didn't,
our dads immediately went to change back.
i guess what happend during the second world war would never
change the mind sets of this two old men.
喜欢你现在的样子
还记得这首歌吗？
那时喜欢的人，现在依然喜欢否？
你说我忘了，你是少数，
我说很多人也曾经这样说过。
“我就是喜欢你现在的样子，我就是喜欢你这样的脾气。
有时善解人意，有时粗心大意，我就是喜欢你现在的样子。
我真的喜欢你现在的样子，我真的喜欢你这样的任性。
有时千言万语，有时不说一句，我真的喜欢你现在的样子。
不要轻易尝试任何改变，改变你现在所有的一切，以为我能再多爱你一些。
不要怀疑自已，属於你的一切都是美丽，我相信只有真心能永远（不变）
不要随便改变你现在的样子。”
2005年11月7日星期一
白色恋人
“不能随便微笑 不能随便拉手 不能随便拥抱
不能和人家吵架就分桌子 不能喜欢人家就送他糖果
不能任性 不能放肆 不能耍脾气 不能闹情绪 不能没礼貌
不能让人家知道 你喜欢什么 讨厌什么
不能让人家看见 你的欢喜 你的厌恶
不能让人家了解 你是谁”--雅玛
我很任性，
任性地认定喜欢阳光沙滩的你
也会喜欢巧克力
我也可以放肆，
放肆地在异乡想起不常出国
却经常从西往东、往北、往南跑的你
我更会耍脾气，
可以漠然地迎面擦身而过、一语不发地面对你
我大方地让你看见我的喜欢
我的白色恋人
不能和人家吵架就分桌子 不能喜欢人家就送他糖果
不能任性 不能放肆 不能耍脾气 不能闹情绪 不能没礼貌
不能让人家知道 你喜欢什么 讨厌什么
不能让人家看见 你的欢喜 你的厌恶
不能让人家了解 你是谁”--雅玛
我很任性，
任性地认定喜欢阳光沙滩的你
也会喜欢巧克力
我也可以放肆，
放肆地在异乡想起不常出国
却经常从西往东、往北、往南跑的你
我更会耍脾气，
可以漠然地迎面擦身而过、一语不发地面对你
我大方地让你看见我的喜欢
我的白色恋人
autumn hokkaido 北海道的秋 2005 -Apa hotel room 1142
This is the second trip to hokkaido,
a different season though,
the first was during winter,
and this time round autumn.
Reached Narita （成田） International Airport at 7:30am(Japan local time),
an hour ahead of Singapore's.
didn't have a good rest on the plane,
thanks to the person in front and i was
lucky enough to have him as one of the 34 in this tour group.
ah bao,the local guide,a jovial 40+ guy reminded me of ah B, the male hong kong singer.
took another hour bus journey to Harita（羽田） Airport to catch the 10am flight,
an hour and 30 min to Sapporo（札幌） (Chitose Airport 千岁机场).
t weather was cold,
the first meal of the trip happened to be the only bbq meal.
took photos and photos, the primary aim of my trip.
the first stop was the Chitose Salmon Aquarium (千岁鲑鱼故乡馆）,
the fishes were adorable, especially when they fought to seek shelter ,
after fighting against the strong river currents for long.
saw how they wriggled out of the eggs, danced in the lights,
grew to a gigantic size and a pair of shoes which were made of their skin.
saw a blue lobster, two mini soft shell crabs fighting with one another too.
dusk came early in hokkaido, around 4 pm,
by the time we came out around 3 45 pm, it was getting cold.
would like to capture the red, orange coloured trees,
but i guess one could only admire its beauty when one was physically there.
had an amazing view of the surrounding from the hotel room,
and i knew i was really far far away from you.
2005年10月31日星期一
leaving on a jet plane
At the waiting area now (11:45pm)
waiting patiently to board the plane
a new travel experience i anticipate
with my parents,my childhood friend and her parents
had a good time exercising this evening
was early and had fun
the night ended well
with your assurance
i will be fine
so must you!
waiting patiently to board the plane
a new travel experience i anticipate
with my parents,my childhood friend and her parents
had a good time exercising this evening
was early and had fun
the night ended well
with your assurance
i will be fine
so must you!
变
昨晚，在整理MP3的曲目。
从那年澳洲旅行开始，
你偶像的歌声代替了你的陪伴。
好想第一时间向你借，
把最新专辑的歌曲收录进去，
两秒钟后却打消了念头。
这样的反复又岂只是这件事而已。
你没发现的是，
我已悄悄地收敛了对你的依恋。
这次的旅行，
我会想谁？
你呢？
从那年澳洲旅行开始，
你偶像的歌声代替了你的陪伴。
好想第一时间向你借，
把最新专辑的歌曲收录进去，
两秒钟后却打消了念头。
这样的反复又岂只是这件事而已。
你没发现的是，
我已悄悄地收敛了对你的依恋。
这次的旅行，
我会想谁？
你呢？
2005年10月30日星期日
2005年10月24日星期一
2005年10月23日星期日
2005年10月12日星期三
心动。梦。涟漪
什么时候的事？
喜欢隔着玻璃门，欣赏舞台上的你。
旁人口中的你，正在疗伤；
想窥探你的世界，是我的意图。
想看穿你的心思，参透你亮丽底下收藏的哀伤。
默默地支持，是我选择的方式。
走进你的生活，我站在台下，追随你的脚步。
怜爱你，周期性的感冒和咳嗽。
忍不住的叮嘱，却变成无声的音符，你没能听到。
电梯里的不期而遇，话匣子始终未曾开启，
一种尴尬的沉默，浓得化不开。
满满的遗憾，在电梯门打开后，倾泻一地。
不奢望有转机，在放开释怀以后，
却在另一次的相遇，奇迹般如故友亲切。
冷不防地让你入梦，心湖始料不及地泛起涟漪，
那该是挑战极限的心，在蠢蠢欲动。
然而我知道，
因心动而梦，
因梦而心动，
仅止于此而已。
喜欢隔着玻璃门，欣赏舞台上的你。
旁人口中的你，正在疗伤；
想窥探你的世界，是我的意图。
想看穿你的心思，参透你亮丽底下收藏的哀伤。
默默地支持，是我选择的方式。
走进你的生活，我站在台下，追随你的脚步。
怜爱你，周期性的感冒和咳嗽。
忍不住的叮嘱，却变成无声的音符，你没能听到。
电梯里的不期而遇，话匣子始终未曾开启，
一种尴尬的沉默，浓得化不开。
满满的遗憾，在电梯门打开后，倾泻一地。
不奢望有转机，在放开释怀以后，
却在另一次的相遇，奇迹般如故友亲切。
冷不防地让你入梦，心湖始料不及地泛起涟漪，
那该是挑战极限的心，在蠢蠢欲动。
然而我知道，
因心动而梦，
因梦而心动，
仅止于此而已。
2005年10月5日星期三
快乐
“快乐是可以分享的
快乐需要一些过程
快乐总是能被记得
因为记忆只留下美好的
你是你自己的作者
何必写那麽难演的剧本
别怪话说的太多了
我只是不要你不快乐”---张智成《快乐》
空气中透露的丝丝微凉
我闻到了
秋天的萧瑟
大地披上橘红色的衣裳
带回来了
我久候的你
在九月风起时
与你肩并着肩
你没问
我也不说
任由默契各自沟通
还你快乐的傻瓜
还我快乐的哑巴
2005年9月21日星期三
深呼吸
出现在午后热闹的牛车水
得到的依旧是蜻蜓点水式的问候
何必呢
在九月快结束之际
才敷衍地献上迟来的教师节祝福
七百多个日子的相处
竟没传授你们做人该有的真诚
穿梭在绿色群海
一次次的深呼吸
提醒自己
与你们的熟悉
就像那大排挡
空留岁月的轨迹
却只是属于我一人的回忆
雪狼湖。不想失去你
像《雪狼湖》的爱情故事，古今中外，信手拈来，比比皆是。
然而我却幸运地在现场听到《不想失去你》。
虽不因它流泪，却因它心碎不已。
想忘记却又更想念
愈想念我无法入眠
没有你还有甚麽在身边
分开心甘情愿
为何又魂萦梦牵
一丝丝一点点你的记忆
一声声一句句浮现心底
怎麽舍得你就这样永远分离
爱一生差一线不能一起
等一天等一年忘掉自己
却忘不了你说放弃
但深爱你
不见面情也不改变
不改变却不能再见
失去你等於失去了明天
我已生无可恋从今我渡日如年
然而我却幸运地在现场听到《不想失去你》。
虽不因它流泪，却因它心碎不已。
想忘记却又更想念
愈想念我无法入眠
没有你还有甚麽在身边
分开心甘情愿
为何又魂萦梦牵
一丝丝一点点你的记忆
一声声一句句浮现心底
怎麽舍得你就这样永远分离
爱一生差一线不能一起
等一天等一年忘掉自己
却忘不了你说放弃
但深爱你
不见面情也不改变
不改变却不能再见
失去你等於失去了明天
我已生无可恋从今我渡日如年
2005年9月1日星期四
01/09/2005
it is YOU who made my day!
Those who responded to my msn nick!( zhiyin 1994-1997, shixian 1997-2000，yuanfang 2000-2003 through snail mail,jiaqi 2001-2004 who called to wish me, guo yu 2001-2004 called despite of a bad flu,qiqi 2002-2005, lee min 2003-2006, huixin 2003-2006, shihui 2003-2006, jingyi 2003-2006 doing a powerpoint, jiaxin 2004-2007, yuanting 2004-2007 self made brownie)
my basketball c division 2001( meizhi, wanxin, xiuxian, shuling, jingyi, yanling) who celebrated as a team with me, not forgetting jingmei and yanqi!
my best form class 1e5 2000 ( shuqiao, meiqi, dingding for accompanying me for the whole morning, yifang for the sms, wenjie for sending me a snail mail)!
my oldest pupil who is also a chinese teacher ( wei yun) !
my oldest player who is a preschool teacher (mei xian，li ying) and the second oldest (huimin)!
my first batch of hostel PRC sholars ( chen yu, kunna)!
and those who showed care and concern ( suxian, shiling)!
谢谢你们用行动证明我存在的意义！
Those who responded to my msn nick!( zhiyin 1994-1997, shixian 1997-2000，yuanfang 2000-2003 through snail mail,jiaqi 2001-2004 who called to wish me, guo yu 2001-2004 called despite of a bad flu,qiqi 2002-2005, lee min 2003-2006, huixin 2003-2006, shihui 2003-2006, jingyi 2003-2006 doing a powerpoint, jiaxin 2004-2007, yuanting 2004-2007 self made brownie)
my basketball c division 2001( meizhi, wanxin, xiuxian, shuling, jingyi, yanling) who celebrated as a team with me, not forgetting jingmei and yanqi!
my best form class 1e5 2000 ( shuqiao, meiqi, dingding for accompanying me for the whole morning, yifang for the sms, wenjie for sending me a snail mail)!
my oldest pupil who is also a chinese teacher ( wei yun) !
my oldest player who is a preschool teacher (mei xian，li ying) and the second oldest (huimin)!
my first batch of hostel PRC sholars ( chen yu, kunna)!
and those who showed care and concern ( suxian, shiling)!
谢谢你们用行动证明我存在的意义！
2005年8月31日星期三
傻瓜
不要说想念，
如果只是说说而已。
凭什么相信，
只因为是你们？
我回来了，
却找不到熟悉的一切。
若不是有三个千禧教过的学生，
我也许早就扬长而去。
不会再有下次，永远不会再有。
关于一切的回忆，
将随风深埋心底。
我不是你们呼之而来，挥之而去的
可有可无的玩偶。
为了实现你们的心愿，
我是做出一定的牺牲的。
也许，最后，
我只是你们眼里的另一个傻瓜而已。
如果只是说说而已。
凭什么相信，
只因为是你们？
我回来了，
却找不到熟悉的一切。
若不是有三个千禧教过的学生，
我也许早就扬长而去。
不会再有下次，永远不会再有。
关于一切的回忆，
将随风深埋心底。
我不是你们呼之而来，挥之而去的
可有可无的玩偶。
为了实现你们的心愿，
我是做出一定的牺牲的。
也许，最后，
我只是你们眼里的另一个傻瓜而已。
2005年8月28日星期日
证明
时间是最好的证明
只不过三十天的时间
这一天对你而言
只是另一个普通的日子
我不难过
只是在你道歉的时刻
又为你落下了眼泪
你已经证明
我在你心里
就是那么地微不足道
我想说的是
这样的事实
比我想象的还早到
我有那么一点儿的难以释怀而已
只不过三十天的时间
这一天对你而言
只是另一个普通的日子
我不难过
只是在你道歉的时刻
又为你落下了眼泪
你已经证明
我在你心里
就是那么地微不足道
我想说的是
这样的事实
比我想象的还早到
我有那么一点儿的难以释怀而已
2005年8月22日星期一
想说
突然觉得离你们好远、好远。
远得我不知道该如何面对你们，
莫名地讨厌那曾经占据我生活的绿。
好不习惯这样的距离、好不喜欢这样的差距。
昨晚收到了第一封教师节的信笺，好兴奋！
然而很快地又伤感起来。
最近，常碰到教过的你们。
朋友都说，我桃李满天下。
我是该感到欣慰吗？
在不同领域有成就的你们，
真的曾经是我训斥的对像吗？
只不过短短的几个月，我怎么老了那么多？
昨晚，竟然为总理的群众大会而落泪。
看到他的全情投入，怎能不动心？
就像每年的国庆，会因为感动而落泪。
也许我的情绪太丰富了，
我想，你们永远也不会明白。
我认识的你们，还好吗？
如果，偶尔想起我，
可否告诉我你的思念？
远得我不知道该如何面对你们，
莫名地讨厌那曾经占据我生活的绿。
好不习惯这样的距离、好不喜欢这样的差距。
昨晚收到了第一封教师节的信笺，好兴奋！
然而很快地又伤感起来。
最近，常碰到教过的你们。
朋友都说，我桃李满天下。
我是该感到欣慰吗？
在不同领域有成就的你们，
真的曾经是我训斥的对像吗？
只不过短短的几个月，我怎么老了那么多？
昨晚，竟然为总理的群众大会而落泪。
看到他的全情投入，怎能不动心？
就像每年的国庆，会因为感动而落泪。
也许我的情绪太丰富了，
我想，你们永远也不会明白。
我认识的你们，还好吗？
如果，偶尔想起我，
可否告诉我你的思念？
2005年8月21日星期日
爱的进行式-陈淑桦
从相识 到 现在 从 冷淡 到 关怀
从拒绝 到 依赖 从 陌生 到 相爱
从深信 到 疑猜 从 疼爱 到 伤害
从炫烂 到 苍白 从 厮守 到 分开
从感动 到 感概 从 体谅 到 责怪
从期待 到 无奈 从 狂喜 到 悲哀
一段情宁愿短暂精彩
还是先去问他会不会有将来
一份爱如果消逝的太快
你可不可以当它是命运的安排
all those loney nights
lonely nights
多么难捱爱过的人都明白
那种孤单的感觉到今天还在
oh lonely nights
lonely nights
心情多坏爱过的人才明白
挥不去也甩开不是伤悲的情怀
抹不去的尘埃抹不去的阴霾
你想你应不应该拒他于千里之外
又舍不得现在又不放心将来
如果只是害怕失败那他究竟值不值得你爱
从拒绝 到 依赖 从 陌生 到 相爱
从深信 到 疑猜 从 疼爱 到 伤害
从炫烂 到 苍白 从 厮守 到 分开
从感动 到 感概 从 体谅 到 责怪
从期待 到 无奈 从 狂喜 到 悲哀
一段情宁愿短暂精彩
还是先去问他会不会有将来
一份爱如果消逝的太快
你可不可以当它是命运的安排
all those loney nights
lonely nights
多么难捱爱过的人都明白
那种孤单的感觉到今天还在
oh lonely nights
lonely nights
心情多坏爱过的人才明白
挥不去也甩开不是伤悲的情怀
抹不去的尘埃抹不去的阴霾
你想你应不应该拒他于千里之外
又舍不得现在又不放心将来
如果只是害怕失败那他究竟值不值得你爱
2005年8月14日星期日
2005年8月11日星期四
2005年8月10日星期三
慢慢
没有你的日子里，我会怎样?
没有我的岁月里，你又会怎样？
我走着走着，
累了，
倦了，
乱了。
忘了。
你继续追逐吧，我留下来。
等到哪一天，
你回来时，
也许我还在守候，
也或者，
在你继续前进时，
我也慢慢向你背着的方向，
离你越来越远。
没有你的日子里，我会怎样?
没有我的岁月里，你又会怎样？
没有我的岁月里，你又会怎样？
我走着走着，
累了，
倦了，
乱了。
忘了。
你继续追逐吧，我留下来。
等到哪一天，
你回来时，
也许我还在守候，
也或者，
在你继续前进时，
我也慢慢向你背着的方向，
离你越来越远。
没有你的日子里，我会怎样?
没有我的岁月里，你又会怎样？
2005年8月3日星期三
2005年7月24日星期日
zpop
没有第一时间的分享，
没有特别权利的待遇，
没有共同时间的相处，
没有相互了解的建立。
我在你心里还有没有重量？
“爱情原来的开始是陪伴，
但我也渐渐遗忘，
当时是怎样有人陪伴。
我一个人吃饭、旅行，处走走停停，
也一个人看书、弹琴，自己对话谈心，
只是心又飘到了哪里，
就连自己看也看不清，
我想我不仅仅是失去你。
别等到一千年以後，世界早已没有我，
无法深情挽著你的手 浅吻著你的额头。”
没有特别权利的待遇，
没有共同时间的相处，
没有相互了解的建立。
我在你心里还有没有重量？
“爱情原来的开始是陪伴，
但我也渐渐遗忘，
当时是怎样有人陪伴。
我一个人吃饭、旅行，处走走停停，
也一个人看书、弹琴，自己对话谈心，
只是心又飘到了哪里，
就连自己看也看不清，
我想我不仅仅是失去你。
别等到一千年以後，世界早已没有我，
无法深情挽著你的手 浅吻著你的额头。”
2005年7月19日星期二
2005年7月13日星期三
2005年7月12日星期二
你不在-听王力宏
胡思乱想，钻牛角尖只会拖慢复原的脚步。
我慢慢了解，有些事情还是得等待时间的。
“当世界只剩下这床头灯 你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身 无数陌生人 正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分 不过渴望一个吻的馀温
我关了灯 黑暗把我并吞
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 喔
无尽等待像独白的难捱 喔
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在 喔
我受了伤再偷偷好起来 但你不在 不在
时间在按下许多次快门 沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨 孤单一人份 你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温 怎样认真也不一定成真
你说得对 我不得不承认
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 喔
无尽等待像独白的难捱 喔
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在 喔
我受了伤再偷偷好起来 但你不在
那些摇摆 我都明白 都明白 喔
但你不在 爱已不在 不在
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 喔
一个人分饰两角的恋爱 喔
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在 喔
像空气般不存在的存在
再没有痕迹的爱 你不在
当我需要你的爱 你不在“
我慢慢了解，有些事情还是得等待时间的。
“当世界只剩下这床头灯 你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身 无数陌生人 正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分 不过渴望一个吻的馀温
我关了灯 黑暗把我并吞
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 喔
无尽等待像独白的难捱 喔
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在 喔
我受了伤再偷偷好起来 但你不在 不在
时间在按下许多次快门 沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨 孤单一人份 你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温 怎样认真也不一定成真
你说得对 我不得不承认
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 喔
无尽等待像独白的难捱 喔
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在 喔
我受了伤再偷偷好起来 但你不在
那些摇摆 我都明白 都明白 喔
但你不在 爱已不在 不在
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 喔
一个人分饰两角的恋爱 喔
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在 喔
像空气般不存在的存在
再没有痕迹的爱 你不在
当我需要你的爱 你不在“
2005年7月3日星期日
那女孩对我说---听黄义达
一开始就注意这首歌了。换了身份，好像就是你我的故事了。
有一点儿感动，也有那么一点儿心痛。
最近的自己，变得好讨人嫌，一点儿自信都没有。我是怎么了？在面临那么多的未知数，我怎么会胆怯了？
失败是什么？没有拥有过的，可以有失去的结果吗？不是说好要好好儿享受过程的吗？我相信你会不一样，时间可以让我看到我要的结果吗？如果这只是考验的开始，我想无论我是不是在世界的中心，抑或是不是借着雨点说爱你，都好像不重要了。我相信你我的约定，我会守着约，直到你失约那天。
“心很空 天很大 云很重 我恨孤单 却赶不走 捧著她的名字
她的喜怒哀乐 往前走 多久了 一个人心中只有一个宝贝
久了之後 她变成了眼泪 泪一滴在左手 凝固成为寂寞
往回看 有什麽 那女孩对我说(说我)保护她的梦
说这个世界 对她这样的不多 她渐渐忘了我 但是她并不晓得
遍体鳞伤的我 一天也没再爱过 那女孩对我说 说我是一个小偷
偷走她的回忆 塞进我的脑海中 我不需要自由
只想背著她的梦 一步步向前走 她给的永远 不重”
有一点儿感动，也有那么一点儿心痛。
最近的自己，变得好讨人嫌，一点儿自信都没有。我是怎么了？在面临那么多的未知数，我怎么会胆怯了？
失败是什么？没有拥有过的，可以有失去的结果吗？不是说好要好好儿享受过程的吗？我相信你会不一样，时间可以让我看到我要的结果吗？如果这只是考验的开始，我想无论我是不是在世界的中心，抑或是不是借着雨点说爱你，都好像不重要了。我相信你我的约定，我会守着约，直到你失约那天。
“心很空 天很大 云很重 我恨孤单 却赶不走 捧著她的名字
她的喜怒哀乐 往前走 多久了 一个人心中只有一个宝贝
久了之後 她变成了眼泪 泪一滴在左手 凝固成为寂寞
往回看 有什麽 那女孩对我说(说我)保护她的梦
说这个世界 对她这样的不多 她渐渐忘了我 但是她并不晓得
遍体鳞伤的我 一天也没再爱过 那女孩对我说 说我是一个小偷
偷走她的回忆 塞进我的脑海中 我不需要自由
只想背著她的梦 一步步向前走 她给的永远 不重”
2005年6月30日星期四
为你朝思暮想
侃侃而谈的你，
让人有些受宠若惊。
是太久不曾聊了，
还是我太快适应你的沉默？
日子刹那间有了意义，
在下次见面前，
我会努力藏好你的笑颜，
不轻易让人偷走不断膨胀的喜悦。
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为了你绕圈圈，
却依然不见你的踪影。
迷蒙的细雨，
仿佛在嘲笑，
我明知不可为却为之的
固执情怀。
让人有些受宠若惊。
是太久不曾聊了，
还是我太快适应你的沉默？
日子刹那间有了意义，
在下次见面前，
我会努力藏好你的笑颜，
不轻易让人偷走不断膨胀的喜悦。
****************************
为了你绕圈圈，
却依然不见你的踪影。
迷蒙的细雨，
仿佛在嘲笑，
我明知不可为却为之的
固执情怀。
2005年6月29日星期三
2005年6月26日星期日
雨。沙。你。
为了这次的约会，
我踏着大雨而来。
人群中一眼就认出你，
在分别许久以后。
你一身轻盈的青缕衣，
在沙沙的雨声中，
衬托出无限的妩媚和娇柔。
先是心口微热，
渐渐地，我晕眩了。
带着所有舞台的光芒,
你像天使般含笑向我走来。
我踏着大雨而来。
人群中一眼就认出你，
在分别许久以后。
你一身轻盈的青缕衣，
在沙沙的雨声中，
衬托出无限的妩媚和娇柔。
先是心口微热，
渐渐地，我晕眩了。
带着所有舞台的光芒,
你像天使般含笑向我走来。
2005年6月24日星期五
2005年6月23日星期四
原来我在和时间谈恋爱
渴望被你抱个满怀，
期待却慢慢被无奈取代。
渴望成为你的第一，
才知道在你心里我没有重量。
不是所有的事情，
都可以用一个方程式，
尤其我们谈的是感情。
等待时间传递思念，
等待时间相聚而后别离。
越来越清楚时间的样子，
它竟是一张爱情的脸。
期待却慢慢被无奈取代。
渴望成为你的第一，
才知道在你心里我没有重量。
不是所有的事情，
都可以用一个方程式，
尤其我们谈的是感情。
等待时间传递思念，
等待时间相聚而后别离。
越来越清楚时间的样子，
它竟是一张爱情的脸。
温度
文字真的可以承载感情，
所有的欢喜和忧愁，
穿越时间的限制，
打造成回忆的钥匙。
你的世界是暖暖的夏，
我躲在里头，甘之如饴。
女人的知觉真的挺灵验，
悄悄转换的心情阴晴，
躲不过细腻的心思，
预知将摧毁的堡垒。
我莫名其妙地被你丢在
少了你温度的秋冬里。
所有的欢喜和忧愁，
穿越时间的限制，
打造成回忆的钥匙。
你的世界是暖暖的夏，
我躲在里头，甘之如饴。
女人的知觉真的挺灵验，
悄悄转换的心情阴晴，
躲不过细腻的心思，
预知将摧毁的堡垒。
我莫名其妙地被你丢在
少了你温度的秋冬里。
2005年6月22日星期三
2005年6月21日星期二
疯了
情绪低落时，
所有的字眼，
都变成立体的形象，
在面前飞舞着。
喝酒的理由，
不是为了消愁，
可好像也逃不开，
离人心上秋。
说穿了，
能让人如此沉沦，
成为夜的归人，
仅有一个情字。
当潇洒不站在我们这边，
疯了是唯一的解脱。
所有的字眼，
都变成立体的形象，
在面前飞舞着。
喝酒的理由，
不是为了消愁，
可好像也逃不开，
离人心上秋。
说穿了，
能让人如此沉沦，
成为夜的归人，
仅有一个情字。
当潇洒不站在我们这边，
疯了是唯一的解脱。
2005年6月20日星期一
突发奇想
再见你，
在热闹的快餐店里。
你乘着西向列车，
疲惫中流露几分的兴奋和喜悦，
那是我们相约的第一个夜晚。
我们成了时间的小偷，
在南瓜车还没变回原形前，
沉浸在月上柳梢头的浪漫里。
也许你，
早已忘却了这段美好。
我踩着回忆的轮子，
回顾你每日准时送到的早餐飘香，
那是你第一个不变的守候。
那个见证我们默契的柱子，
依然伫立在你经过的每一天。
我开始恐慌
这是不是你仅能给我的，
只有回忆，
没有明天。
在热闹的快餐店里。
你乘着西向列车，
疲惫中流露几分的兴奋和喜悦，
那是我们相约的第一个夜晚。
我们成了时间的小偷，
在南瓜车还没变回原形前，
沉浸在月上柳梢头的浪漫里。
也许你，
早已忘却了这段美好。
我踩着回忆的轮子，
回顾你每日准时送到的早餐飘香，
那是你第一个不变的守候。
那个见证我们默契的柱子，
依然伫立在你经过的每一天。
我开始恐慌
这是不是你仅能给我的，
只有回忆，
没有明天。
2005年6月13日星期一
2005年5月30日星期一
seventh day
Was bathing when the fire alarm rang.
Didn't realise it was the fire alarm till I came out of the room.
Was among the last few to be out of the hotel and it was only
two degree Celcius at half past seven in the moring.
Fire engines and the police came and
people started to take photos of their rare appearance.
Wearing only sandals, my feet went cold even the sun was out.
In the end it was only a false alarm.
Was late for my last day of Conference and I realised my notes and my earphone pouch were nowhere to be found upon reaching the University.
Was a little affected but life still went on.
Went to the Brentwood Shopping Mall for a while and decided to go back to Downtown.
There were more people on the streets this time round,
most probably because it was Friday.
Was contented to be able to buy some clothes.
Slept through the evening till nine to get my dinner.
Pampered myself with this Grilled prawn with black pepper and the best thing was to watch "Pretty Woman" starring Julie Roberts and Richard Gere on the local TV.
Was a little too late to realise I missed so many American movies for my stay there but nevetheless, still managed to watch first half of "While you were sleeping" by Sandra Bullocks.
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Woke up @ 3:00am to bathe.
Checked out of the hotel a@4:30am 28/05/05 and reached the Calgary Airport @ 5:20am.
Waited long at the Customs, and was unluckly to be stopped by the Officer to check my luggage.
Took the United Express, a small plane with only 15 rows of four seats each.
Landed at the San Francisco Domestic Airport three hours later.
Boarded a bus to the International Airport and had a great drive on the runways of the Airport.
Changed for some US currency to have my breakfast at this Japanese Restaurant in the Airport.
Went to this self automated machine to clear the US customs. Wondered why Singapore Passports cannot be scanned by the machine and needed manual keying in.
An almost ten hours flight to Tokyo Narita International Airport. Was lucky to have one of the seats empty for the flight.
Had Baileys Irish Cream and it brought back memories of the Staff Retreat at Rasa Sentosa where I had the first taste of it.
Had around three hours in Narita Airport. Met more Asians and felt closer to home.
Changed for Japanese yens and went for the last round of airport shopping.
Finally, used the last boarding pass and spent the last six hours plus on plane.
Reached Changi International Airport Terminal One @11:30pm 29/05/05.
Was home finally but strangely enough my Nokia Phone cannot swtich to the correct Singapore Time.
Drove to Changi Village for my Nasi Lemak.
Slept for almost 19 hours before I was clearly awake.
Home Sweet Home.
Didn't realise it was the fire alarm till I came out of the room.
Was among the last few to be out of the hotel and it was only
two degree Celcius at half past seven in the moring.
Fire engines and the police came and
people started to take photos of their rare appearance.
Wearing only sandals, my feet went cold even the sun was out.
In the end it was only a false alarm.
Was late for my last day of Conference and I realised my notes and my earphone pouch were nowhere to be found upon reaching the University.
Was a little affected but life still went on.
Went to the Brentwood Shopping Mall for a while and decided to go back to Downtown.
There were more people on the streets this time round,
most probably because it was Friday.
Was contented to be able to buy some clothes.
Slept through the evening till nine to get my dinner.
Pampered myself with this Grilled prawn with black pepper and the best thing was to watch "Pretty Woman" starring Julie Roberts and Richard Gere on the local TV.
Was a little too late to realise I missed so many American movies for my stay there but nevetheless, still managed to watch first half of "While you were sleeping" by Sandra Bullocks.
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Woke up @ 3:00am to bathe.
Checked out of the hotel a@4:30am 28/05/05 and reached the Calgary Airport @ 5:20am.
Waited long at the Customs, and was unluckly to be stopped by the Officer to check my luggage.
Took the United Express, a small plane with only 15 rows of four seats each.
Landed at the San Francisco Domestic Airport three hours later.
Boarded a bus to the International Airport and had a great drive on the runways of the Airport.
Changed for some US currency to have my breakfast at this Japanese Restaurant in the Airport.
Went to this self automated machine to clear the US customs. Wondered why Singapore Passports cannot be scanned by the machine and needed manual keying in.
An almost ten hours flight to Tokyo Narita International Airport. Was lucky to have one of the seats empty for the flight.
Had Baileys Irish Cream and it brought back memories of the Staff Retreat at Rasa Sentosa where I had the first taste of it.
Had around three hours in Narita Airport. Met more Asians and felt closer to home.
Changed for Japanese yens and went for the last round of airport shopping.
Finally, used the last boarding pass and spent the last six hours plus on plane.
Reached Changi International Airport Terminal One @11:30pm 29/05/05.
Was home finally but strangely enough my Nokia Phone cannot swtich to the correct Singapore Time.
Drove to Changi Village for my Nasi Lemak.
Slept for almost 19 hours before I was clearly awake.
Home Sweet Home.
2005年5月27日星期五
我想说的是...
有好多话没来得及说
有好多事没来得及做
有些话不是你说完就能完
有些事不是你说算就能算
有些人不是你说想就能想
而往往这些人不是你说忘就能忘
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背起行囊流浪，
也开始被放逐的滋味。
思念随着路途的遥远，
越拉越越长，
慢慢开始纠结。
分不清
是思念
还是被思念幸福
也或者
幸福的另一面
是无尽的煎熬
这样的流浪，
早该习惯。
我却无法释怀，
你的全无音讯。
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有好多事没来得及做
有些话不是你说完就能完
有些事不是你说算就能算
有些人不是你说想就能想
而往往这些人不是你说忘就能忘
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背起行囊流浪，
也开始被放逐的滋味。
思念随着路途的遥远，
越拉越越长，
慢慢开始纠结。
分不清
是思念
还是被思念幸福
也或者
幸福的另一面
是无尽的煎熬
这样的流浪，
早该习惯。
我却无法释怀，
你的全无音讯。
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sixth day
Had the Conference the whole day.
Decided to try the A&W Breakfast in the MacEwan Hall,
where the student centre was.
There were many stalls in this canteen which was rather crowded in meal hours.
All food were packed in huge packets and I had difficulty finishing
my Wan Ton Noodle Soup for lunch.
Was extremely delighted when I could find this Chinese Stall.
There were many Asians studying here, compared to only four Asians attending the Conference.
Toured around the Student Centre and was delighted to find hair salon, game arcade,
florist shop, a big photocopy centre, drinking lounge and etc.
Spent my free time in the Bookshop.
Took the train from the Banff Trail Station to Downtown after my Conference.
A two dollar ride one way, regardless of how many stops.
Shopped along the Seventh Avenue, though it was only Evening, not many shoppers were seen.
All the shopping centres were connected by linkways and that saved you trouble from walking in and out of the shopping centres.
Kept checking the watch for time as very often Iwas the only soul or one of the few shopping at each storey at a time.
Received the only call for this trip.
Talked to you outside the Shopping Centres which faced the Train Station.
For the first time felt the distance and I was indeed far far away from home.
Had an aimless walk on the Stephen Avenue Walk.
It was supposed to be crowded but only a few were seen.
It was still broad day light but I felt unsafe.
Decided to take the train back when no taxis responded to my flag of hands.
Maybe it was back to Crowchild Trail, where my hotel was situated, I felt more at ease.
Decided to try the A&W Breakfast in the MacEwan Hall,
where the student centre was.
There were many stalls in this canteen which was rather crowded in meal hours.
All food were packed in huge packets and I had difficulty finishing
my Wan Ton Noodle Soup for lunch.
Was extremely delighted when I could find this Chinese Stall.
There were many Asians studying here, compared to only four Asians attending the Conference.
Toured around the Student Centre and was delighted to find hair salon, game arcade,
florist shop, a big photocopy centre, drinking lounge and etc.
Spent my free time in the Bookshop.
Took the train from the Banff Trail Station to Downtown after my Conference.
A two dollar ride one way, regardless of how many stops.
Shopped along the Seventh Avenue, though it was only Evening, not many shoppers were seen.
All the shopping centres were connected by linkways and that saved you trouble from walking in and out of the shopping centres.
Kept checking the watch for time as very often Iwas the only soul or one of the few shopping at each storey at a time.
Received the only call for this trip.
Talked to you outside the Shopping Centres which faced the Train Station. For the first time felt the distance and I was indeed far far away from home.
Had an aimless walk on the Stephen Avenue Walk.
It was supposed to be crowded but only a few were seen.
It was still broad day light but I felt unsafe.
Decided to take the train back when no taxis responded to my flag of hands.
Maybe it was back to Crowchild Trail, where my hotel was situated, I felt more at ease.
2005年5月26日星期四
fifth day
Bathed early in the morning.
Strolled to the University
after an unfinished breakfast at Macdonald's.
Though the winds were strong, began to get used to it.
However, my ears were numbed and cold by the time
I reached the destination.
It reminded me of how people could lose one's ears unknowingly.
The first day of Conference, around 200+ turned up and I was one of the
few asians there.
The setting of the hall was not conference-like.
There wasn't enough lightings and air pipes were clearly seen.
Break out rooms were more furnished yet smaller than expected.
Met many and talked to many.
Most were Canadian, while others came from the States, New Zealand, China and Korea.
Was not used to the typical western meals provided, one salad, one main course and one dessert.
Almost died of too much cheese and salad and I actually finished one whole salmon.
Didn't finish the dinner, left most of the food untouched as I felt nauseous.
Afterall, am still very Chinese.
Strolled to the University
after an unfinished breakfast at Macdonald's.
Though the winds were strong, began to get used to it.
However, my ears were numbed and cold by the time
I reached the destination.
It reminded me of how people could lose one's ears unknowingly.
The first day of Conference, around 200+ turned up and I was one of the
few asians there.
The setting of the hall was not conference-like.
There wasn't enough lightings and air pipes were clearly seen.
Break out rooms were more furnished yet smaller than expected.
Met many and talked to many.
Most were Canadian, while others came from the States, New Zealand, China and Korea.
Was not used to the typical western meals provided, one salad, one main course and one dessert.
Almost died of too much cheese and salad and I actually finished one whole salmon.
Didn't finish the dinner, left most of the food untouched as I felt nauseous.
Afterall, am still very Chinese.
2005年5月25日星期三
我真的受伤了---张学友
“灯光也暗了，
音乐低声了，
我的心开始想你了。
电话响起了，
你要说话了，
还以为你心里对我有想念了，
怎么你声音变得冷淡了，
是你变了，是你变了。
灯光熄灭了，
音乐静止了，
滴下的眼泪已停不住了。
天下起雨了，
人是不快乐，
我的心真的受伤了。”
------看不到你，听不到你，感觉不到你。想你会想我吗？我真的很想你。
音乐低声了，
我的心开始想你了。
电话响起了，
你要说话了，
还以为你心里对我有想念了，
怎么你声音变得冷淡了，
是你变了，是你变了。
灯光熄灭了，
音乐静止了，
滴下的眼泪已停不住了。
天下起雨了，
人是不快乐，
我的心真的受伤了。”
------看不到你，听不到你，感觉不到你。想你会想我吗？我真的很想你。
fourth day
As usual, woke up at wee hours.
Had Macdonald’s breakfast before the start
Of the trip to Drumheller, the home of the dinosaurs.
It was said that dinosaur bones were found there,
and now it is the world biggest dinosaur centre.
As we left Calgary, the fifth biggest city in Canada,
there were occasional showers.
Drumheller is a one and a half hour drive from Calgary
and driving on the roads in Canada is boring yet fascinating.
All you could see is a vast land with nothing but huge sky with
layers and layers of clouds and mountains of golden wheat fields.
It is amazing that you can find masses of land untouched by humans.
According to the guide, Calgary beat Singapore a few years ago to win
the cleanest and greenest city in the world.
Peter, the guide found it amazing that we need a passport to leave Singapore
to other countries of the world.
It is not surprising though, if Calagry is only a city of the province Alberta
and Alberta is equivalent to two and half Japan.
There were seven of us in the van, one from Australia, two from UK and two from
Scotland.
Jack said he went to Singapore in 1944 and Raffles Hotel was the main attraction there.
Josephine said Singapore is next in her list of countries to travel.
A small dot in the World Map and yet known to the many in the world,
shouldn't I be proud of my country?
Went to the Dinosaur Museum
and spent qualitative one and half hours there.
Went to other scenic areas like the horseshoe canyon, Orkney viewpoint, the suspension bridge, 11 bridges on the same river, not forgetting the largest dinosaur in the world.
Reached back at only six and I had to rush for the registration at the University.
Had a great dinner at this Vietnamese Restaurant as I had a craving for rice.
2005年5月24日星期二
发现
发现了更多、更好的你。
见证了贴心的默契，
爱，从期许到决定，
the best part of me，
只给你。
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偶尔我真的不懂你，又有谁真懂自己。
往往两个人有多甜蜜，是透过伤害来证明。
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你的爱，飞很远，
像候鸟看不见，
我含泪，面向着北边。
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望远镜看不见你，
你的心，飞去哪里？
闭上眼睛，却看见你，
想你的好，代替无力。
我相信你，却不相信自己。
别说对不起，别让我伤了心，
才说不是故意，
我却无法怪你，
我却只能爱你。
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我只怕时间恶作剧，
把今天变成曾经，
怂恿你把我忘记。
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我相信，我们未来的关系，
百分之百不会太容易。
我只所以没有多考虑，
爱你是冒险，冒险是乐趣。
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爱，为何你不在场。
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就算是寂寞也不理，
因为思念让爱零距离。
为了你，我愿意，
多用心照顾自己，
也请你别忘记，
我们和幸福有约定。
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我相信我和你一定会有结局，
任时光再侵袭，
拥抱一样坚定。
这世界有太多会消失的美丽，
但你是你，所以我相信。
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我愿意这条路和你相守相随，
你最珍贵。
见证了贴心的默契，
爱，从期许到决定，
the best part of me，
只给你。
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偶尔我真的不懂你，又有谁真懂自己。
往往两个人有多甜蜜，是透过伤害来证明。
--------------------------------
你的爱，飞很远，
像候鸟看不见，
我含泪，面向着北边。
-------------------------------
望远镜看不见你，
你的心，飞去哪里？
闭上眼睛，却看见你，
想你的好，代替无力。
我相信你，却不相信自己。
别说对不起，别让我伤了心，
才说不是故意，
我却无法怪你，
我却只能爱你。
-------------------------------
我只怕时间恶作剧，
把今天变成曾经，
怂恿你把我忘记。
-------------------------------
我相信，我们未来的关系，
百分之百不会太容易。
我只所以没有多考虑，
爱你是冒险，冒险是乐趣。
-------------------------------
爱，为何你不在场。
-------------------------------
就算是寂寞也不理，
因为思念让爱零距离。
为了你，我愿意，
多用心照顾自己，
也请你别忘记，
我们和幸福有约定。
-------------------------------
我相信我和你一定会有结局，
任时光再侵袭，
拥抱一样坚定。
这世界有太多会消失的美丽，
但你是你，所以我相信。
-------------------------------
我愿意这条路和你相守相随，
你最珍贵。
third day
Nothing much happened today.
Woke up after long hours of sleep,
skipping my dinner.
Had a sumptuous breakfast buffet in the hotel,
the only meal I had today.
Walked to the University of Calgary,
It was supposed to be a 10 min walk from the hotel,and it turned out to be another 10 min more.
Reached the conference venues only after a 30 min walk,
guess I would certainly slim down by end of the conference.
It was colder than yesterday, reaching the maximum only at 17 degree Celsius,
the strong winds kept howling though it was sunny.
Chanced upon the last day of the Canadian Open Volleyball Championships
at the Olympic Oval(a stadium which was built for 1988 Winter Olympic Games)
in the University Campus.
A huge stadium where uncountable volleyball courts were set up for this one-month Carnival.
Watched a game or two, experiencing the Canadians' volleyball fever.
Today was Victoria Day, a public holiday where shops were either closed or closed early.
Day tours were not even available and had just need to rest in the hotel.
Was happy that Britney Spears sang " Everytime" the moment I switched on the TV,
a song that reminded me of someone special.
2005年5月23日星期一
second day
Confused with the time,
Woke up when I should be sleeping,
Sleepy when I should be wide awake.
Went through all the brochures available,
And decided to go to the Canadian Olympic Park,
A place which held the 1988 Winter Olympic Games.
A summer season it should be but the temperature
Was only 10 degree Celsius.
Had breakfast at the MacDonald’s and
Took a 10 min cab there and joined the guided tour.
A huge place where you can see the ski jump,
skeleton, luge and bon sleigh track.
Were wearing three layers of clothes but people were in their
t shirts and shorts for mountain biking.
Alberta, the province I am in, had its province flag with many colours.
Blue sky with white clouds, golden wheat fields and white snow cap mountains paint the daily scenic setting this 100 year old province.
It was said the Queen would be coming here on the 24th to join in the celebration,
a timely visit for me, to witness this.
Went downtown, a dead place when it was a Sunday.
Shops only opened @12pm and closed @5:30pm.Went to the Calgary Tower, which was similar to the Sydney Tower.
Had a 360 view of whole Calgary and I must say the snow cap Rockies mountains were the most fascinating view.
Walked the way to Chinatown and had a late lunch at a Japanese restaurant.
Shopped a little in this two storey building where I bought my Momoe Yamaguchi's DVD.
Headed back to the hotel in the evening and slept for hours after eating my flu tablet.
Missed my dinner and was a little hungry while I was updating my blog.
2005年5月22日星期日
Start of an adventure
Left Singapore Terminal 1 @6:45 am, had omelette for breakfast, watched "The Incredibles", sandwiched between two guys, one of them was double the size of another.
Reached Hong Kong @10:30 am and spent some time locating the Disney tour in the airport which i went to when i was there in July 2004.
Continued the flight to Chicago for another 14 hours. Had snack, rest, ate chicken meat rice, rest, ate instant noodles, rest,
Listened to Mp3 players most of the time, the usual SHE songs accompanied me.
Upon reaching, one of the hydraulic engines malfunctioned and the plane needed to land earlier as usual. The thought of the traffic control tower people will be towing the plane after the plane landed immediately, people on board were excited and worried at the same time.
The custom duty officers were stern and all visitors needed to look into the camera eye and had both their right and left index finger put onto a sensor for record purpose. My right finger was too cold to be scanned and I was asked by this black custom officer to blow some hot air to it.
Didn't know i need to take out the laptop from my bag for x ray scans, not in Sigapore neither nor Hong Kong. Made this black lady custom officer a little mad and the other one handled my bag with so much care that as though i was one of the terrorists.
Met this charming 41 years old US military guy there and talked till we reached our specific gates. He said that the US custom officers seldom smile, unlike the Thais. He just came back from Thailand and he loves the place.
Waited for another one hour, before boarding the last plane to Canada, Calgary. Met two ladies who were on the same plane to Chicago in the toilet. Both talked to me, like a long lost friend. Maybe this is how you feel when you see familiar face in a foreign land. Though we never talk during the trip and were only on the same plane for 14 hours.
After 4 hours, finally reached Canada.
The customs officers here were friendly. Asked about the sunrise and sunset and this kind lady quickly checked the net for information. The day breaks @5:30 am (local time) and night falls only @9:30 pm. According to her, the longest day is on the 21/06/05.
Time here in Canada is 14 hours late.
I left on the 21/05 and when I reached here, it is still the 21/05.
Whoever sees this, I miss home.
Reached Hong Kong @10:30 am and spent some time locating the Disney tour in the airport which i went to when i was there in July 2004.
Continued the flight to Chicago for another 14 hours. Had snack, rest, ate chicken meat rice, rest, ate instant noodles, rest,
Listened to Mp3 players most of the time, the usual SHE songs accompanied me.
Upon reaching, one of the hydraulic engines malfunctioned and the plane needed to land earlier as usual. The thought of the traffic control tower people will be towing the plane after the plane landed immediately, people on board were excited and worried at the same time.
The custom duty officers were stern and all visitors needed to look into the camera eye and had both their right and left index finger put onto a sensor for record purpose. My right finger was too cold to be scanned and I was asked by this black custom officer to blow some hot air to it.
Didn't know i need to take out the laptop from my bag for x ray scans, not in Sigapore neither nor Hong Kong. Made this black lady custom officer a little mad and the other one handled my bag with so much care that as though i was one of the terrorists.
Met this charming 41 years old US military guy there and talked till we reached our specific gates. He said that the US custom officers seldom smile, unlike the Thais. He just came back from Thailand and he loves the place.
Waited for another one hour, before boarding the last plane to Canada, Calgary. Met two ladies who were on the same plane to Chicago in the toilet. Both talked to me, like a long lost friend. Maybe this is how you feel when you see familiar face in a foreign land. Though we never talk during the trip and were only on the same plane for 14 hours.
After 4 hours, finally reached Canada.
The customs officers here were friendly. Asked about the sunrise and sunset and this kind lady quickly checked the net for information. The day breaks @5:30 am (local time) and night falls only @9:30 pm. According to her, the longest day is on the 21/06/05.
Time here in Canada is 14 hours late.
I left on the 21/05 and when I reached here, it is still the 21/05.
Whoever sees this, I miss home.
2005年5月17日星期二
2005年5月15日星期日
小心！B 型的人！
1） 最爱的人永远是自己
却同时可以让对方
甘心地付出所有永不言悔
2） 不轻易投入感情
用情很深、很真，
给予对方最踏实的肩膀
最安全的避风港
却不从一而终
3） 只允许受伤一次
伤的彻底、不轻。
伤人的次数不计其数
却是愿者上勾，一个愿挨，一个愿打。
4） 极限挑战是最大的吸引力
喜欢攻入对方心田
留下胜利者的足迹
5） 不甘于一成不变
在爱得最深之际
可以一觉起来
说没有感觉了
令对方措手不及
如果你真的爱上B型的人
我只能说：祝你好运！
却同时可以让对方
甘心地付出所有永不言悔
2） 不轻易投入感情
用情很深、很真，
给予对方最踏实的肩膀
最安全的避风港
却不从一而终
3） 只允许受伤一次
伤的彻底、不轻。
伤人的次数不计其数
却是愿者上勾，一个愿挨，一个愿打。
4） 极限挑战是最大的吸引力
喜欢攻入对方心田
留下胜利者的足迹
5） 不甘于一成不变
在爱得最深之际
可以一觉起来
说没有感觉了
令对方措手不及
如果你真的爱上B型的人
我只能说：祝你好运！
怎么？
最近的你，好吗？
从别人口中知道的，
是不是你想，
却没机会让我知道的。
我也在反省，
好像也没让你知道，
太多我这里的生活。
最近，
我沉静了。
喜欢利用午餐时间，
让自己在健身房里流汗；
喜欢戴着新买的耳机
听着久违的九五八；
喜欢远离周末的热闹
呆在屋里陪着两个侄子。
好久没宠宠自己，
让自己漂亮一下。
好久都是沉沉的，
也许，是时候，
去晒晒心情了。
地球变小了，
我们怎么变远了？
从别人口中知道的，
是不是你想，
却没机会让我知道的。
我也在反省，
好像也没让你知道，
太多我这里的生活。
最近，
我沉静了。
喜欢利用午餐时间，
让自己在健身房里流汗；
喜欢戴着新买的耳机
听着久违的九五八；
喜欢远离周末的热闹
呆在屋里陪着两个侄子。
好久没宠宠自己，
让自己漂亮一下。
好久都是沉沉的，
也许，是时候，
去晒晒心情了。
地球变小了，
我们怎么变远了？
2005年5月13日星期五
难
相见时难别亦难，东风无力百花残。
春蚕到死丝方尽，蜡炬成灰泪始干。
晓镜但愁云鬓改，夜吟应觉月光寒。
蓬山此去无多路，青鸟殷勤为探看。
《李商隐.无题〉http://www.vlike.com/flash/15019.htm
春蚕到死丝方尽，蜡炬成灰泪始干。
晓镜但愁云鬓改，夜吟应觉月光寒。
蓬山此去无多路，青鸟殷勤为探看。
《李商隐.无题〉http://www.vlike.com/flash/15019.htm
2005年5月12日星期四
写在临别前夕
如果用歌曲来编织你我的故事
那需要多少首？
所有的爱情只能有一首主题歌
你最后的选择会不会是我？
所有的故事只能有一个结果
你最后停靠的避风港是不是我？
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发现越来越沉默了。
当世界不会因我的安静而停止转动，
我选择做回以前的自己。
减少与人的交集，
我开始怀疑，
会不会有一天当我开口时，
已经失去说话的能力？
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我选择静静地来，悄悄地走，
这样也好。
至少对于爱我的人，
欠缺的感受不会那么深，
失去的痛苦也不会那么强烈。
也或许正是爱我的人，
不管是怎样的我，
你们都会用心去感受我的存在。
那是不是，
不管我留下或是离开，
只要心中有爱，
你们都不会把我忘记。
那需要多少首？
所有的爱情只能有一首主题歌
你最后的选择会不会是我？
所有的故事只能有一个结果
你最后停靠的避风港是不是我？
************************
发现越来越沉默了。
当世界不会因我的安静而停止转动，
我选择做回以前的自己。
减少与人的交集，
我开始怀疑，
会不会有一天当我开口时，
已经失去说话的能力？
************************
我选择静静地来，悄悄地走，
这样也好。
至少对于爱我的人，
欠缺的感受不会那么深，
失去的痛苦也不会那么强烈。
也或许正是爱我的人，
不管是怎样的我，
你们都会用心去感受我的存在。
那是不是，
不管我留下或是离开，
只要心中有爱，
你们都不会把我忘记。
2005年4月13日星期三
问
所有的山盟海誓，
原来只是一时的情绪而已。
世界上还有永恒的至死不渝吗？
依稀记得那年的海边，
谈起未来的你。
还有躲在楼阁那个小小世界，
受挫失败的你。
你眼里为追求幸福的坚毅，
还那么清晰 灼热，
而那竟是若干年前的事了。
难道一切都是年少轻狂吗？
当你有一天回忆起这一段，
你该会用怎样的心情面对？
是轻描淡写地，
还是唏嘘无限，
我该是你生命的过客吗？
在那交会的时刻，
占据你所有的视线，
然后在被你抛向世界尽头的瞬间，
化为你眉宇间的依恋。
原来只是一时的情绪而已。
世界上还有永恒的至死不渝吗？
依稀记得那年的海边，
谈起未来的你。
还有躲在楼阁那个小小世界，
受挫失败的你。
你眼里为追求幸福的坚毅，
还那么清晰 灼热，
而那竟是若干年前的事了。
难道一切都是年少轻狂吗？
当你有一天回忆起这一段，
你该会用怎样的心情面对？
是轻描淡写地，
还是唏嘘无限，
我该是你生命的过客吗？
在那交会的时刻，
占据你所有的视线，
然后在被你抛向世界尽头的瞬间，
化为你眉宇间的依恋。
2005年3月11日星期五
白色恋情
隔开我们和世界的白色泡沫，
在你眼里化作了浪漫的天使，
窗外的温度仿佛回到冰点下，
就像那年冬天。
空气里流动的是不变的呼吸，
听不厌的旋律不断拨动心弦，
温柔提醒相互守候不离不弃。
那年的冬天，
指间的温暖记下美丽的篇章，
烙印心中的一双深邃眼眸里，
映出白色世界里罕有的坚定。
在你眼里化作了浪漫的天使，
窗外的温度仿佛回到冰点下，
就像那年冬天。
空气里流动的是不变的呼吸，
听不厌的旋律不断拨动心弦，
温柔提醒相互守候不离不弃。
那年的冬天，
指间的温暖记下美丽的篇章，
烙印心中的一双深邃眼眸里，
映出白色世界里罕有的坚定。
2005年3月9日星期三
逃兵--给试着想开却始终放不下的你
手中的感情线
蕴藏的是怎样的玄机
握得住的是他眉宇间的喜悦和伤悲
没有把握的依然是你七零八落的心情
没有开始的感情
总容易让人神往
也容易让人心伤
散落一地的恍惚和不安
只等待着他眼神的肯定
然而 回应你的
始终只有那似有却无 遥不可及的幸福
太大的想象空间
预言更多的难过和凄凉
永远不能改变的关系
是他给你的无期徒刑
在这条感情线上
你只能原地踏步
在他设限的关系里
品尝专属于逃兵的苦涩甜蜜
蕴藏的是怎样的玄机
握得住的是他眉宇间的喜悦和伤悲
没有把握的依然是你七零八落的心情
没有开始的感情
总容易让人神往
也容易让人心伤
散落一地的恍惚和不安
只等待着他眼神的肯定
然而 回应你的
始终只有那似有却无 遥不可及的幸福
太大的想象空间
预言更多的难过和凄凉
永远不能改变的关系
是他给你的无期徒刑
在这条感情线上
你只能原地踏步
在他设限的关系里
品尝专属于逃兵的苦涩甜蜜
2005年2月22日星期二
2005年2月15日星期二
2005年2月14日星期一
2005年1月30日星期日
忘了
如果出现得太频繁，
惊喜会渐渐转为平淡。
我们都太容易习惯，
所以短暂的一切，
都较容易刻骨铭心。
我们都忘了，
没有人知道哪一次是最后一次。
所以，
当我认真地注视你们，
用心地聆听你们的笑声；
请不要惊讶，
也不要疑惑。
我只是想透过你们的童真，
唤起愈来愈远你们的身影。
惊喜会渐渐转为平淡。
我们都太容易习惯，
所以短暂的一切，
都较容易刻骨铭心。
我们都忘了，
没有人知道哪一次是最后一次。
所以，
当我认真地注视你们，
用心地聆听你们的笑声；
请不要惊讶，
也不要疑惑。
我只是想透过你们的童真，
唤起愈来愈远你们的身影。
2005年1月19日星期三
2005年1月16日星期日
生日感言
平凡的日子
不寻常的心情
午夜钟声敲了十二下
四方八面的祝福
随着声声的震动
映入眼帘
也许无声真的胜有声
听不到却看得到的生日快乐
需要多少想象的空间
如果想象真的可以抵过实在的拥有
那么我又何须为了可以能够面对面而兴奋不已
也许科技的如何发达
都比不上一把声音、一个眼神、
一个可以感受彼此呼吸和温暖
一个可以肩并肩、手牵手的真实
不寻常的心情
午夜钟声敲了十二下
四方八面的祝福
随着声声的震动
映入眼帘
也许无声真的胜有声
听不到却看得到的生日快乐
需要多少想象的空间
如果想象真的可以抵过实在的拥有
那么我又何须为了可以能够面对面而兴奋不已
也许科技的如何发达
都比不上一把声音、一个眼神、
一个可以感受彼此呼吸和温暖
一个可以肩并肩、手牵手的真实
想念
问我想不想念？
从不回答的我，是怕说了，更加思念，更加不舍。
在离开的时候，悄悄嘱咐自己，
只要将回忆收藏好，放心地展开另一段旅程，
就是给大家最好的礼物。
在离开后的日子，纵然有再多的恋恋不舍，也得坚持到底。
声声的老师早，谢谢老师，都只能往回忆里找。
张张可爱的脸孔，美丽的笑容，却都还是那么熟悉。
问我想不想念？
从不回答的我，还是怕说了，更加思念，更加不舍。
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这些日子以来，只有那短短的半天，带给我最大的满足和快乐！
只有你们的吵吵闹闹，才能让生日更加圆满！
这样的绿，可以消失在我生活中，却一直植根在我生命里！
从不回答的我，是怕说了，更加思念，更加不舍。
在离开的时候，悄悄嘱咐自己，
只要将回忆收藏好，放心地展开另一段旅程，
就是给大家最好的礼物。
在离开后的日子，纵然有再多的恋恋不舍，也得坚持到底。
声声的老师早，谢谢老师，都只能往回忆里找。
张张可爱的脸孔，美丽的笑容，却都还是那么熟悉。
问我想不想念？
从不回答的我，还是怕说了，更加思念，更加不舍。
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这些日子以来，只有那短短的半天，带给我最大的满足和快乐！
只有你们的吵吵闹闹，才能让生日更加圆满！
这样的绿，可以消失在我生活中，却一直植根在我生命里！
2005年1月12日星期三
tsunami??--to my basketballers
after all these while
it is left with only an empty shell.
after all these promises
it is the memories i can really rely on.
after all these ten years
i am only a failure to realise.
all my dreams and hopes
now seem so far away
as i see the tsunami waves within the hearts
breaking down the whole family
it is the worst disaster i can imagine
the most heartbreaking news i can hear
the most hurtful thing you can do
it is left with only an empty shell.
after all these promises
it is the memories i can really rely on.
after all these ten years
i am only a failure to realise.
all my dreams and hopes
now seem so far away
as i see the tsunami waves within the hearts
breaking down the whole family
it is the worst disaster i can imagine
the most heartbreaking news i can hear
the most hurtful thing you can do
2005年1月11日星期二
Yesterday Once More
Sprained ankle 16-11-00
Swollen was my left ankle after the fateful landing in the midst of a great game.
Dreadful were the days ahead where fun and laughter would be far away.
Praying, wishing, hoping for a speedy recovery
For I couldn't wait to carry out what I have thought, planned and promised.
Errrmmmm...can I be granted with one more wish?
No more sprain and no more fracture!
Honesty 18-11-00
To be honest and true to me
Like how you would be honest and true to yourself.
Am I asking more than I should? or should I lower my expectations?
The feeling of disappoinment was overwhelming
Maybe I should be more patient for I believe
Time should open your heart to me.
To my special angel-star 18-11-00
You tear again.
It has been long since we last chat.
Was that the you I know along or the new you?
Did the times share belong only to the past?
I hold you again.
It has been long since we last relate.
Was I the same old me or a total stranger?
I hold on still, would you?
Dream catcher 18-11-00
I have a dream catcher given by my angel.
Sweet dreams stay while nightmares vanish.
I am sheltered by this love, care and concern ever since.
But last night, my angel disappeared in the midst of crowds in a heavy rain.
I wonder has the catcher lost its power?
Sweet dreams stay while nightmares vanish.
My angel whispers into my ears, reassuring the love, care and concern.
I couldn't help but be touched
for I still have my dream catcher and of course my angel.
Missing you 21-11-00
Missing you, missing the old days, missing the happy times shared.
Is it more important now in making the present worthwhile than to miss it in the future?
Someone dear, someone precious, someone important comes along and stay.
Should I be contented or expect more than before to mould a perfect you in the future?
You touched me again with this true feelings of yours.
Only you can revive my emotions, my angel.
Ultimately, only missing you.
I wonder 23-11-00
I wonder,
Do words hurt or do they heal?
I have credited so much trust and belief in this joint account of ours.
Yet in the end
There is always an overdraft.
I wonder
Is it the end or a new beginning?
I have prayed so hard for development and continuity in this ship of ours.
Yet in the end
There is always a destruction.
Who 25-11-00
Who?
Who let the dogs out?
Who?
Who drinks only black coffee?
Who?
Who wants to dance all night long?
Who?
Who says that don't think I am not?
Who?
Who ever knows all these, I miss you!
Without you 27-11-00
Friday,
I put on a coat of red, covered myself with black and stay out late.
The first attempted contact failed destined the days ahead would be the same,
without you.
Saturday,
I rushed to the north, hurried to the south and ended in the east.
The fun, comfort and laughter generated were then only moments of happiness,
without you.
Sunday,
I played all roles, experienced all weathers, within the limited area.
The winning of your idol provided some comfort as I imagined your glowing smile,
without you.
If I were you 28-11-00
If I were you,
I would continue to love,
Even though roads are winding and heartbreaking are never ending.
If I were you,
I would continue to love,
For only love can do wonders and spice up life with meanings.
If I were you,
I would continue to love,
Be it forbidden love or deserved love.
If I were you,
I would still believe in love
but I can never be you,
and you would never know I have loved you all along.
TIme capsule 06-12-00
There is always a part of me with you.
Time may fade off memories,
But you will always remain real and true.
Knowing the egoism of me inside,
Will lock you in this time capsule of mine.
In years to come,
Before I die.
Your passion and love would come alive,
upon the reopening of this time capsule of mine.
Seeing me through the end of time.
Crosses 14-12-00
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx You drew me dozens of crosses
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Crosses stand for love
Swollen was my left ankle after the fateful landing in the midst of a great game.
Dreadful were the days ahead where fun and laughter would be far away.
Praying, wishing, hoping for a speedy recovery
For I couldn't wait to carry out what I have thought, planned and promised.
Errrmmmm...can I be granted with one more wish?
No more sprain and no more fracture!
Honesty 18-11-00
To be honest and true to me
Like how you would be honest and true to yourself.
Am I asking more than I should? or should I lower my expectations?
The feeling of disappoinment was overwhelming
Maybe I should be more patient for I believe
Time should open your heart to me.
To my special angel-star 18-11-00
You tear again.
It has been long since we last chat.
Was that the you I know along or the new you?
Did the times share belong only to the past?
I hold you again.
It has been long since we last relate.
Was I the same old me or a total stranger?
I hold on still, would you?
Dream catcher 18-11-00
I have a dream catcher given by my angel.
Sweet dreams stay while nightmares vanish.
I am sheltered by this love, care and concern ever since.
But last night, my angel disappeared in the midst of crowds in a heavy rain.
I wonder has the catcher lost its power?
Sweet dreams stay while nightmares vanish.
My angel whispers into my ears, reassuring the love, care and concern.
I couldn't help but be touched
for I still have my dream catcher and of course my angel.
Missing you 21-11-00
Missing you, missing the old days, missing the happy times shared.
Is it more important now in making the present worthwhile than to miss it in the future?
Someone dear, someone precious, someone important comes along and stay.
Should I be contented or expect more than before to mould a perfect you in the future?
You touched me again with this true feelings of yours.
Only you can revive my emotions, my angel.
Ultimately, only missing you.
I wonder 23-11-00
I wonder,
Do words hurt or do they heal?
I have credited so much trust and belief in this joint account of ours.
Yet in the end
There is always an overdraft.
I wonder
Is it the end or a new beginning?
I have prayed so hard for development and continuity in this ship of ours.
Yet in the end
There is always a destruction.
Who 25-11-00
Who?
Who let the dogs out?
Who?
Who drinks only black coffee?
Who?
Who wants to dance all night long?
Who?
Who says that don't think I am not?
Who?
Who ever knows all these, I miss you!
Without you 27-11-00
Friday,
I put on a coat of red, covered myself with black and stay out late.
The first attempted contact failed destined the days ahead would be the same,
without you.
Saturday,
I rushed to the north, hurried to the south and ended in the east.
The fun, comfort and laughter generated were then only moments of happiness,
without you.
Sunday,
I played all roles, experienced all weathers, within the limited area.
The winning of your idol provided some comfort as I imagined your glowing smile,
without you.
If I were you 28-11-00
If I were you,
I would continue to love,
Even though roads are winding and heartbreaking are never ending.
If I were you,
I would continue to love,
For only love can do wonders and spice up life with meanings.
If I were you,
I would continue to love,
Be it forbidden love or deserved love.
If I were you,
I would still believe in love
but I can never be you,
and you would never know I have loved you all along.
TIme capsule 06-12-00
There is always a part of me with you.
Time may fade off memories,
But you will always remain real and true.
Knowing the egoism of me inside,
Will lock you in this time capsule of mine.
In years to come,
Before I die.
Your passion and love would come alive,
upon the reopening of this time capsule of mine.
Seeing me through the end of time.
Crosses 14-12-00
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx You drew me dozens of crosses
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Crosses stand for love
2005年1月10日星期一
生日
today is my chinese birthday
今天是我的生日，让我为自己唱一首歌
happy birthday to me
祝我生日快乐
happy birthday to me
祝我生日快乐
happy birthday to me
祝我生日快乐
happy birthday to me
祝我生日快乐
今天是我的生日，让我为自己唱一首歌
happy birthday to me
祝我生日快乐
happy birthday to me
祝我生日快乐
happy birthday to me
祝我生日快乐
happy birthday to me
祝我生日快乐
2005年1月6日星期四
2005年1月4日星期二
2005年1月2日星期日
A Brand New Start
tomorrow is a brand new start of my new posting
don't have the slightest idea
but guaranteed countless challenges
feeling like a newly graduate
waiting to unveil layers of this profound world
not lost but a little unsure
just need time to adjust
to a new phase without any green in my life
don't have the slightest idea
but guaranteed countless challenges
feeling like a newly graduate
waiting to unveil layers of this profound world
not lost but a little unsure
just need time to adjust
to a new phase without any green in my life
